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That teacher was my English teacher in 5th, 6th and 8th grade, In fifth she was okay with me, I used to write poems and story, she praised me a lot, once we had a hw to write a story, I wrote one, it was highly appreciated by her but when I saw my marks, they were ridiculous...... I could not understand her and ignored thinking that she praised me so that I feel happy. In sixth nothing realy happened between us but in 8th!! she didn't left a moment to criticize me. I got second highest in English but I was scolded in front of my class and a lot more incidents happened of her criticizing me.............. If I start to post them this post will never end. The reason behind all this was her internal tension with my mother(who is also a teacher in the same school) and her jealousy!!! I was good at everything in early years........... drama, studies, sports, dance. and her son who is two years younger than me is good for nothing.
sorry yesterday my wifi was not working because of heavy rain...!!!
So..... today we had a house meet, and suddenly my basket ball coach came, called me and told me to take out five good basket ball players from my house. There were only two children in basket ball team form my house, one was me and another was absent and today we were having inter house basketball competition................ most worst thing..................... I was not having my shorts and shoes!!!!
With a great difficulty I convinced some girls to play!! two of them were not in our house uniform....... but it was okay!!!
The match started............. we were blue playing against green...................... of course I was the captain, match was going smooth, we already did a basket when suddenly a teacher came in the middle of the court!!!
She has no right to coordinate tenth, she is the coordinator of 4th to 7th grades nor she is teaching us. But she came and called the referee, and said that in my house to children are not in proper uniform, they do not respect house dress so they can't play!!! I was stunned!! In the left court there was a match between red and yellow where children were playing without their house uniform and that was OKAY for her!!!! she is a real bitch!!! and after this as a captain I was boiling with anger........ I ran where more girls in our HOUSE T-SHIRT were sitting, convinced some of them to play, they were the people who really did'nt know how to play, I explained them the rules and the match started again, because I was angry I play with anger!! I just had to win this match, star was good but at the end they made baskets. We needed one basket to win and had one minute to win................ standing near the opponents basket it looked quite difficult but suddenly something went inside me.................. I snatched the ball, passed it, the ball reached our side, I got a pass without even seeing the basket and taking the aim I shot and their was a clear wonderfull winning basket and then I saw that teacher and from the bottom of my heart my mind said F**** You!!!!
The final match was against yellow after 5 min, this time that teacher went and we were allowed to make those players play!! well I was tired and we lost!! we landed second in the tournament!! We lost the final match but still I am happy!!! :) have to say a lot more but I think its time to go!!!
PAST:
That teacher was my English teacher in 5th, 6th and 8th grade, In fifth she was okay with me, I used to write poems and story, she praised me a lot, once we had a hw to write a story, I wrote one, it was highly appreciated by her but when I saw my marks, they were ridiculous...... I could not understand her and ignored thinking that she praised me so that I feel happy. In sixth nothing realy happened between us but in 8th!! she didn't left a moment to criticize me. I got second highest in English but I was scolded in front of my class and a lot more incidents happened of her criticizing me.............. If I start to post them this post will never end. The reason behind all this was her internal tension with my mother(who is also a teacher in the same school) and her jealousy!!! I was good at everything in early years........... drama, studies, sports, dance. and her son who is two years younger than me is good for nothing.
sorry yesterday my wifi was not working because of heavy rain...!!!
So..... today we had a house meet, and suddenly my basket ball coach came, called me and told me to take out five good basket ball players from my house. There were only two children in basket ball team form my house, one was me and another was absent and today we were having inter house basketball competition................ most worst thing..................... I was not having my shorts and shoes!!!!
With a great difficulty I convinced some girls to play!! two of them were not in our house uniform....... but it was okay!!!
The match started............. we were blue playing against green...................... of course I was the captain, match was going smooth, we already did a basket when suddenly a teacher came in the middle of the court!!!
She has no right to coordinate tenth, she is the coordinator of 4th to 7th grades nor she is teaching us. But she came and called the referee, and said that in my house to children are not in proper uniform, they do not respect house dress so they can't play!!! I was stunned!! In the left court there was a match between red and yellow where children were playing without their house uniform and that was OKAY for her!!!! she is a real bitch!!! and after this as a captain I was boiling with anger........ I ran where more girls in our HOUSE T-SHIRT were sitting, convinced some of them to play, they were the people who really did'nt know how to play, I explained them the rules and the match started again, because I was angry I play with anger!! I just had to win this match, star was good but at the end they made baskets. We needed one basket to win and had one minute to win................ standing near the opponents basket it looked quite difficult but suddenly something went inside me.................. I snatched the ball, passed it, the ball reached our side, I got a pass without even seeing the basket and taking the aim I shot and their was a clear wonderfull winning basket and then I saw that teacher and from the bottom of my heart my mind said F**** You!!!!
The final match was against yellow after 5 min, this time that teacher went and we were allowed to make those players play!! well I was tired and we lost!! we landed second in the tournament!! We lost the final match but still I am happy!!! :) have to say a lot more but I think its time to go!!!
I was a nothing till I was 10, which is when an older guy taught me how to hold the basketball I had received as a birthday gift. It soon began to define me, I wasn't just a shadow anymore. I really feel it gave me- the loser that I was- an identity.
ReplyDeleteI became a part of the senior basketball team when I was 12. I was the 10th member of the 10 member of the team, nonetheless i still remember the feeling when they called out my name. Things were going great... just.. that I was obviously a spot of jokes at school tourneys. "Hey. Chotu" was very common". To be honest, i was too much into my own to let that anger me. Actually, I think I was a dumb kid to even let it bother me. But I had to prove myself. I did a fade out, and made a shot and gave the guy a stern look. I think I tried hard to be angry. I guess I just wanted to be like my Dad who could get any work done- a lot of it because of his anger. I was nothing like him.
Later in life, there was one thing because of which I suffered the most.. my anger issues. I messed up so many matches (apart from many other imp things) because of the fact that I let myself be angry- after a while it was tough to control it. This is one of my only regrets. The game gave me such good memories. But now I am old, I can't play much and I wish I had kept my head calm. Done my favorite game a little more justice. I certainly try to now. Its hard work.
Yup........... Its Hard work!! But the game is worth hard work when you enjoy it!! I must thank you because this is the first comment I got on this blog and also thank you for telling me this story of you.................. now I will try not to get angry while playing but just passionate!! :D :P
DeleteGood. Always know that your motivation to succeed should come from positive feelings, happy feelings. Pressure, anger might help you get small successes, but in those important times, pressure only leads you to crumble and fall. A calm mind is imperative. Channelize your anguish and complains. If you don't see life as fun now, you will never see it as fun even when you achieve all that to desired. And I say this out of experience. Other people might have better lives, easier lives. But never crib. Some things are out of our control. What we have in our control is our choices, our decisions, and the kind of people we want to be.
ReplyDeleteNow................. All I can say is Thank you and I will keep this in the back of my mind always! :)
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